「The only thing I hate more than Golem is Mithral Golem.」
In this Wonderland, Goblin, a harmless little Goblin is capable to cast spell. Doesn't sufficient to make it be mighty, but peculiar, and unexpectable.
The question is, what an ass-kicking Golem can do in the wonderland?
A long time ago, in the dungeon deep deep away...
A mage was caugh flat-footed by a Mithral Golem.
This rookie was knocked down by the first strike, fortitudinous he was, he got up and struck back. He conjured... ur something... spells may be? No... it could not even be classified as cantrips. He claimed one of that be Mycontil' s Last Resort... and Magikarp with Splash would laugh at him if it saw that.
And, the point is, he realized a fact, a fact he should know long before: Golem is immune to spells, all sort of.
He took out a dagger instead, to scratch it, to scratch the strongest metal in the middle-earth. He knew, that's only a desperate struggle, he knew that by heart. But he kept going, hoping that it would somehow make a critical damge. Yes, in epics constucted by bard, those overpowered heroes always slay the villains by a critical attack. However, another fact this rookie should know is, By the game rules, Golem is immune to critical hits, too!
Value of Game是甚麼？ Expected Payoff...... 本來應該是輕飄飄的，卻沉重得說不出來。 Sigma head, the estimator of the standard deviation is... ZERO. 這是把所有data塞進model裏run regression的結果。 不要緊，不要緊吧；因為那些比我優勝一萬倍的，也蓄到整寸厚了。
我知道是毫不理性，但我也想起活地阿倫那一個冷笑話。
Trust your Force... And head for the Garden of Madness.
Like King Midas in reverse, everything I touch turns to shit. I'm not a follower to my professors. I'm not a son to my parents. I'm not a friend to my friends. I'm nothing but a butt to whom I fight with. I'm nothing but a scum to whom I respect. I'm nothing but a pawn to whom I treasure. I don't even know why I write this.
當人同時被現實和信仰遺棄時，出賣自己的靈魂有什麼不可呢？ 是救贖先放棄了我們，誰還能怪我們變得人性的、太人性的。 在地獄，人有必要維持僅餘的一點人禽之辨嗎？ We are all sons of bitches. 一切皆為滿足慾望，所有人都一樣；分別是有些人在滿足慾望的同時自high是在為公義／為人類謀福。 「You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that... but you have no right to judge me.」馬龍．白蘭度在戲中說。 我現在明白：我可以去阻止他，我可以揭穿那國王的新衣，我甚至－假使有能力的話－去消滅他； 但我沒有資格去評價他、去鄙視他。（當然，現實是我連阻止他也是力不從心。）
如同你，你可以把我像蟲虫一樣掐碎，你可以把我放逐到更深一層的地獄去；但你無法對我施行審判。
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝ 「I watched a snail... crawl along the edge of a straight razor. That's my dream. That's my nightmare. Crawling, slithering along the edge of a straight razor... and surviving.」 --Marlon Brando, in 《Apocalypse Now Redux》, (2001)
To slip away silently... and let the end of all ends comes, in the finest and worst hour of my time. After all, it needs more guts to end it than to face it.
獅子似的凶心，狐狸的狡猾．．．和兔子的怯弱。
廢柴。
但恐懼，最後還是超越了原生恐懼。
Generalized Laws of Thermodynamics： 1. You can't win. 2. You can't break even. 3. You can't even quit the game.
認清了第一條， 經歷了第二條， 體會了第三條； 到達了被隱藏的第四條：You will lose.
Let's step into the desperate struggle. Win, in the end all things appear fair. Lose, and drop down to an even deeper circle of hell. I am 3,602,600,218％ certain that it is doomed. But don't panic, just trust your Force... And head for the Garden of Madness.
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝ 「Despair, the end of the world. I hear the rising phoenix in my dream. ． ． ． ． ． ． Cape of hope, the end of the dream. A shiny fish splashes in a stream. 」
